Size 54, No More, Paging Number 46

The crazy part about this morning is that I wanted to try on some jean pants, and we found some of my old shorts that were a size forty-six. Now before I continue this, let me tell you that I’ve been wearing basketball shorts for the last seven years, and had worn jeans few times up until 2014…I think. Anyway, I tried these shorts on and they were kind of loose. I don’t know if it’s because they were old, but I couldn’t fit into a size like that comfortably last year.

A win is a win, and I will take it. Sarah says that she can tell that I’m starting to feel “sexy”, and I must say that I do feel damn good about myself. It’s amazing what a bit of weight loss does for the confidence level. I haven’t weighed myself this week, because if you remember, I did say that I was going to only do the weigh in every other week. I can’t wait until I’m on the other side of 300. It’ll be nice to be my early adult weight again.

It feels strange that I’m starting to swim in my clothes, and I’m not going to go crazy and buy a completely new wardrobe quite yet, but I have been thinking of a getting a new outfit, something probably different than just a superhero shirt and shorts. I feel like I want to start dressing a little bit better on occasion, especially since Sarah tends to dress nice on date nights, and I’m looking like I always do. I appreciate that she says I look handsome all the time, but I feel that I could present myself a bit better for her.

Besides that, I should say that I’ve been busy getting the professional side of my life straightened out. I’m going to my school in two Fridays to pick up my stuff for when I walk down for my graduation, I’ll probably take the time to see my career advisor while I’m there. I finally got a rough draft of my newest resume for said film career done, and turned it in tonight. I hope that it’s something that we can work with to make better. Besides that, I also have another job lead that I’ve been looking to go towards for the better part of six years, I hope that I can hit up the application when it comes out so that I can fill it out, and hopefully get the job, that I went to school for.

I’ve taken the undertaking of trying to learn Spanish, so that I can become bi-lingual. It’ll help in communicating in general, especially since I do customer service type work, and it doesn’t hurt that I’ve got a goal to write a script in both English and Spanish as it’s about a Latina and her boyfriend(who isn’t Latino), and the plight that they go through being a bi-racial couple. I was an idea that I thought up a while back, and I thought it would be a nice challenge…. That’s something I like as a writer, is challenging myself. I really gets my creativity going, and as I get things going, I’ve got so much that I’ve already started, now it’s finding the time to concentrate on on script at a time, but I don’t want to loose the ideas, once I get them. I used to have these great ideas when I was younger, but I never wrote them down, and I would forget them over time.

I think that’s part of the reason I decided to keep learning, so that I could gain tools to help me out and be a better individual, between the Spanish, and learning things about getting that dream job, and then the videos to help me learn the software programs that I’m using or going to be using as I make movies, I’m staying busy, and I haven’t really played video games much lately. I have been watching more movies though.

On top of all of those things, blogging is helping me become a better writer, and I used to think that 500 words was kind of a challenge to come up with.  It’s funny because I’ve seen where the growth of my words have gone since I started this WordPress page for a class a couple of years ago. I was averaging about 400 words, then last year I was about 460. Now I average around 650 or something like that. Plus, my audience’s growing and my like are far higher now than they have been for the blogs I’ve had over the last two years. The only thing that’s down is the comments, I haven’t had somebody comment on the page itself. I think that I’m finally finding that niche as a blogger, and with all the projects that I’ve got going, I’m sure that I won’t be running out of any content to produce any time soon. Especially once we can get working on the studio, things kind of went south on movement there, but with a year of uncertainty, I don’t find that a bad thing at this time.

Self improvement is a key to success and I would like to see people succeed, keep on the journey of self discovery, you might surprise yourself. This is the director and that’s a wrap.

Welcome To Club 100

So for the start of today’s blog, I’m going to educate the populace on what I had done and some of the facts about the procedure. According to the brochure at the doctor’s office, produced by Covidien the technical name for the gastric sleeve that I’ve been talking about over the last two months is the vertical sleeve gastrectomy, or partial gastrectomy. The procedure takes the cutting out of two-thirds of the stomach to make the stomach into a part of tube, or to make it look like a “sleeve”. This procedure also removes the part that produces a hormone called Ghrelin, which is the chemical that controls the cravings for being hungry.

At my highest weight, I was weighing in at 429.9 lbs. and at a hight of five-foot-ten, that put me at a body mass index of 61.7. The requirement is to have a BMI of 35, and I was well above that. I was on the cusp of having bad cholesterol, high blood pressure, and quite frankly, I was a prisoner in my own body(I’m sure I’ve said this a couple of times). heaviest

This was what I looked like at my heaviest. The worst part of all of this weight was when I would try to actually exercise, I would hurt. I had bruised my foot on a walk, my knees hurt, and it was just the most difficult thing when I moved. I truly felt that I was trapped in my own body and there wasn’t anything that I felt I could do to help me loose the weight. I was scared that I was going to put myself into an early grave.

I was doing well before I had my breakdown at work in 2013. I was on Weight Watchers and I had lost fifty-six pounds. 2 years after weight watchers

I was feeling good at the time, I felt free and with more energy, but then depression took over, and I gained it all back and then some. It was a rough time in my life, and my mind wasn’t right. I felt like I was the most worthless thing and I wanted to die. That actually followed me even when I was able to go back to work.

When I decided to go back to school in 2014, I was trying to change my life around. I didn’t realize for about the first year of school in what I was doing, and it took until about another half-year before I realized that what I needed in life was a better outlook on what life could and would end up being for me.

The first thing I did do, again without realizing the potential of what would come, was I decided that I would be a beacon of positivity. When I left work, there was negative people everywhere and it really helped to bring me down. The decision of being positive wasn’t for anybody else, except myself. I didn’t want to continue to feel worthless, and the new outlook helped me be a better person, not only with myself, but for other’s as well. That is something I continue to, and will continue to do for the rest of my life.

Finding that creative outlet was the best thing for me, I’ve been able to put forward the thoughts and revelations into something tangible, and that’s where things like this blog come in at. It seems like I’m in a constant state of thought, even when it’s at the worst times, like when I’m trying to sleep. Sometimes, it’s that state of restlessness  that helps some of my better ideas come out.

So, bringing this to a more present time period, when I got introduced to the idea of setting up a WordPress website, I decided that I would use the platform to blog. I figured that it would be a good way to share my experience, and hope that the words would find someone who might need to know that there’s other’s who have gone through the same kinds of issues they have, and that there is someone they could reach out too. I also fond it therapeutic for when I go through some of my emotional times. Though I suffer from depression, I don’t look at it as a weakness, but as a strength because I’ve survived the darkest of times. I’ve survived several times throughout my adult life. Now I’m here to help other’s who don’t know if they will make it, or if they just need some support and to be aware that things will get better.

With in the last year, the awareness that I’ve come across was that things were going to get better for me as I worked hard to finish school. I knew that I was setting myself and my family up for better things in life. I’ve been determined to make the best of life. As the months got closer to the end of my schooling, I was more determined to get done, and put what I earned to good use. I’ve been networking and planting the seeds for this better future.

Feb 3 stats

This is from my Pacer app. I went to my two month post operation check up and I weighed in at 360 lbs. It’s been a while there, and since it was out of town, I was determined to explore the city and get my 10,000 steps in today. I’ve got farther than I thought I would, and I’m glad that I have something to help record my progress. I think the most effective part is the fact that I’m obsessed with numbers, and this is a great way to keep track of the movements from my walks.

As I was walking with my wife downtown Lancaster, a thought came too me that I had never considered before- I invested in myself. Wow! I never considered something like that. Sure I’m going to have student loans, and the high cost of my weight loss surgery, but I had invested in myself. Physically, and mentally, I spent the money to help me find myself, and I’ve brought so many people with me for the ride. It took the surgery to help me not feel trapped anymore, and I want to keep pushing to get better. Then the school has helped me find the person that I was meant to be.

I think that’s the secret for people to be successful, and happy…invest in yourself, because the only person who’s going to take care of you in this life is you. You can only grow if you push yourself. That’s a thought to contemplate.

This is the director, Chris Keeling, I’m about seventy pounds lighter, and that’s a wrap.

Science? To What Degree?

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I got this beauty in the mail today. It’s my Bachelor of Science in Digital Filmmaking. I’ve busted my ass for the last three years to obtain this degree, and it the pay off is in the Magna Cum Laude. I’ve never wanted something so bad in my life. I was happy to be able to finally accomplish something at this level. Plus, it’s a major step in the direction to having a better life for me, and my family.

I guess I should give an explanation on why this is a milestone for me, with the fact that I usually would let myself get to a point of insecurity, and quit anything worth while because something got to hard. I would do everything I could just to get by in life. I had various passions in my life, but I would squander them and waste the talent that I had. Now things are different.

I had to have that kick in the ass to get myself going, and while some people think that going after my passions and gaining the skills of a filmmaker might be considered a “waste of time”, I beg to differ because, film can go towards so many other things besides doing movies. Yes, I do movies, and I plan to keep on doing visual story telling, while doing other work with my degree in the real world. I have a plan.

The degree is step one, step two is getting myself healthy and since I’ve had the gastric sleeve, I’m feeling much better about myself. These will continue to help me build the brands that I’ve been working on for the last few years and I plan on doing far more things in life. Currently the third step is getting myself that other employment to help support my family and help make the movies that we will be making.

I’m sure after the third step I will have other plans starting to come to the forefront and those plans will be revealed as I continue on this course that I’ve taken for the rest of my life. I’m motivated to live my life and not be stuck playing video games all the time, and let time be wasted away. I love how life is finally turning around, and making me a better person. I will be sharing more as I go along. This is the director and that’s a wrap.

Boom! And It’s Done.

I did it! A whole three years and now I’m done with school. Thank you to Los Angeles Film School for giving me the opportunity for getting my Bachelors of Science in Digital Filmmaking. This is one of the biggest accomplishments that I’ve ever achieved. The future is ahead and I’m ready to take it with “Maximum Effort”.

For the last several months, I was in a mode of panic. I was always busy trying to get things done for a deadline, and the few moments that I actually got a break, I was relieved, but it was temporary. Now, I’m fooling myself into thinking that I’m gonna be free, but it’s a lie as I’ve already been working on getting things done for Luckey Bom Films. That’s not to be outdone by the fact that The Ck Project is going to be taking off. Plus, Geeks of the IWV: Presents Geeks on Geeks is about ready to have content coming out. God Damn, I am going to be busy.

With that being said, I’m at a point where life is moving at a quick pace, as I’m going to be going through weight loss surgery, and getting the Gastric Sleeve, which is something that I’ll be documenting. That, plus the fact that I’ve been working with someone to do another documentary, that’s going to be inspirational.

March sixteenth is the day that I walk down the isle, and I’m going to be at least one hundred pounds lighter, and that’s exciting. I mentioned that life is moving at a fast pace, and I’ve never been more excited. Now that I have a degree, it’s time for me to get a better paying job and live out my dreams.

I want to thank everyone who’s been supporting me, whether it’s been on the blogs, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram. Your love and support has been greatly appreciated, especially in times when I felt like giving up. So, for the final time as a student, this is the director and that’s a wrap.

Could You Speak Up, You’re Being Too Loud.

This has been a hectic few months, I for one have been totally focused on school, and not much of anything else. At least I wrote a little something last month. Not only have I been busy with school, but I’ve been trying to get myself to relax a bit since my anxiety about getting everything done has been high.

The big one- Nash Gray has a fully edited version that has been complete. I turned it into the teacher, and I seemed to have done very well on it. This version isn’t going to be seen by too many people as I want to have a final go with the whole film to tighten up some scenes, and come out with the best version of this film. There are so many people that I want to thank for this deal. First and foremost, my wife Sarah. She’s been through this whole adventure with me, beginning three years ago when I took the step forward and go back to school. For this project, she was the assistant that I needed when I needed her.

I want to thank Ed Smith, my friend and creative partner. He gave me his ideas and we worked on them until we could come up with a story that would work for our first time doing a movie together. Ed was reluctant about playing the musical persona that has been his for over twenty years and I think he did well, and I was more than happy to bring life to the rest of his band.

Not too be out done, Celeste Joy Greer, my cinematographer. Her experience and guidance has helped me develop my “camera eye” and I’ve become a better filmmaker because of her. A thousand thank you’s would never be enough to show the gratitude I have, and I can’t wait until we get started on the next big thing.

Also, big thanks go out to Alisa Wiggin for coming in and doing makeup. It was a joy to have you do something you love for me. Kurt Mitchell, thanks for stepping in and doing sound, I appreciate that we could work together again, you are now and will always be a good friend to me. Also to Terry Bays, thank you for everything you’ve ever done when I’ve asked, you stepped up when I needed you, but my concern is with your health brother, and that’s why I had you take a step back. You’re family and we love you. I need you around for plenty of other things. A final crew thanks goes out to my friend Rodney Connors; we’ve acted together, you’ve acted for me, but I appreciate that you helped my cast this thing, and found our counter to Nash in Celese.

Now onto the cast, Ed seeing you come out and perform was awesome, glad you got the bug now. Curtis Koller, you had the chance to play Benny Kelley, and that wasn’t an easy task to play the tragic character of this movie. You stepped up not only as acting, but crewed as well, and I appreciate you being a part of this team. Dean, you playing Jake is against character for you, and while it started out rough, you really found yourself in this character and I’m glad that you enjoyed doing the work as well. Freddy Ferris Jr., it was nice to add a new face to the people I’ve been lucky enough to work with and I’m glad that you were apart of this process. You really dedicated to the role of Andy King, and I am glad to call you friend.

For the females of this film. Celese Sanders, you who lead the charge of female bad ass. Thanks for coming in and putting up with the hot room and warm weather. It was fun, and I also count myself to have made a friend out of you. Britney Brown, the one person that I wrote a role specifically for. Thank you for bringing your A game the entire time, even at the casting call. You’re talented and I look forward to seeing what you do in the future, if I find myself writing a character that needs your talent, I’m gonna get a hold of you. Finally, Amber Still, my stage wife, and friend. Thank you! I love your talent, and hope that we’ll find a chance to work together again as well.

For the final thank you…..To every single teacher that I’ve had put input into this Capstone project, you’re advice and guidance helped me, and I think I got a decent first film out of this. I know that the way I went with this project was a bit ambitious, but it was well worth the story to have been told in the end.

Not to forget the friends and family who said yes to allowing us to film at your places. Thank you for letting us film there, and I’m glad you all didn’t feel too put out by this filmmaker. Plus the owner and operator of KSSI radio on 102.1fm, thanks for doing the narration for me Jon. You are awesome and I’ll always support your radio station.

I’m gonna leave the thank you’s here for now, and call it a wrap, but I’m gonna put something out soon to explain more on where I’ve been, and what the future holds.

Give Me That Boss Level XP

Let me start off by saying that today didn’t go quite like I expected it too. We were supposed to film backstage footage for the first flash back of Nash Gray, but illness has gone through a few of my cast members(and it was running so smoothly too). So, today caused a break in filming, and I’m okay with that because the next few weekends are going to be quite busy for me in other aspects besides school. Instead, it gave me some time to come to the studio and make plans for when we do next shoot(silver linings people), and it has given me sometime to actually sit down to work on my rough cut of the film(kind of useful, killing two birds with one stone). That’s when the concern started hitting me.

As I got what footage I have for the beginning, I discovered that right before I get to the first flash back, I’m already at the four minute mark. I’m concerned because there are things that I still need to film, and I only have fifteen minutes to tell my story. Do I go ahead and finish filming the scene I was supposed to film today? Or do I cut it all together? Truth of the matter, I’m not sure how I’m feeling about the pace of what I have so far as it is, and I’m sure I can shave things down to make it flow better, but what if I have to cut that bitch up a bit to make it flow better? I’m not even completely sure where to start looking to trim that fat.

The one thing I do know is that I really want to film everything and give the fifteen minutes to my project, and then go back for an extended cut that has everything in it. I know that I’m biased by saying that I love this project, and the characters are wonderful as well. The other problem that I face is that waiting on finishing my film is kind of cutting into my editing time, which I’m trying to think of ways to just edit what I have and fill in the gaps as I can, I might be able to solve that problem, and I do have an idea of what I need to do first.

Again I will say that this has been the most amazing experience ever, and I don’t think that I’m all that surprised that I ran into a snag towards the end of this project. Actually, I was kind of expecting this to happen somewhere, I just thought our last day of filming was going to be that day. I’m a creative problem solver, so I’m sure I’ll get a solution before the end of the weekend. I just sent a text out to help solve part of this issue.

I have however thought of another way to use my time…. I think that I’m going to go ahead and also work on said scripts that I’ve been working on the last couple of days, and use this time to relax a bit. It’s crazy that I’ve been running on full steam for so long that I’m not completely sure what to do, but I think playing video games and watching movies are part of that plan. Something might give me an inspiration, and I’m looking for that almost anywhere anymore. I went to my son’s awards assembly and here a name called. Arizona Smith, and I thought that it sounded like the wife of Indiana Jones. I’m not sure if I’m ready to write an adventure genre yet, but you never know.

While not filmmaking related, I do want to give a huge shout out to my wife, as we are celebrating our seventeenth year of our first date. She’s a better person than I, because I wouldn’t put up with the shit I do. I’m too ornery, and there’s been too many tears shed because I’ve done something stupid. Alas, I love you my wife, and as long as you continue to join me on this crazy ride, I’ll welcome the company. You’ve been with me through many ups and downs, and now you have a husband who’s been more driven to do things now, than ever. She supports me, and I try to support her as well, but I don’t think I’m nearly as good at it as she is.

Two months of school left and then into the great unknown. I have a few job prospects, and surprisingly is has nothing to do with the Hollywood Dream, not that I’m apposed to the idea, but I’m really liking being able to create my own content, or working with someone else on the creative process. I might still look for something to crew for on a big movie, I just don’t think I’m in a big rush for that. Right now, it’s all about taking it one step at a time, and I don’t want to get sloppy in my growth process.

Another thing going on is that we are going to be doing a change of venues for our studio, and that’s going to put us out of a studio for several months, but I do plan on still doing things, even if it has to be from the house itself. I’m sure things are going to be awesome afterward, because we’ll have more space to play in and it’s going to be built from the essential ground up. The beautiful part of that is that I get to say how it gets designed, and I look forward to adding studio lighting too it(even if it’s expensive, which it is). I guess that also means that I’ll have to become extremely proficient in green screen since that plan is to paint the walls that way. It’s both exciting, and going to be so much work, but the reward will be reaped once everything is done, and who ever said that if it was worth doing, that it would be easy. Not a cliche that I’ve heard. I know that hard work’s the only way things will work, and I’ve proven that I’m not afraid of it because I went to school with my fists swinging to get this done.

This looks like it’s going to be another wrap from me, the Director.

 

A Creepy Thing Happened To Me Today

So, I think that I’d like to reiterate a few things that I’ve mentioned in posts past. One, when I originally tried to write a script, I was either going to do comedy or horror. I put a few really good funny things in Nash Gray, so I’m confident in being able to write that. I’m not completely sure if I’m ready to write a complete comedy yet, but I’m looking forward to that day.

I’m however excited to announce that I’ve started writing two scripts. The first one is that I got rid of my Life Happens  script, but I’ve restarted it, and hope that I’ll have a more solid piece when I’m done.   I felt that the dialogue wasn’t my best work and now I’m trying to put more emotion and intensity to it. I’ll keep you updated on that progress. The better news is that my new script, which I was intently writing on paper with pencil today is in fact a horror genre script. I’m building a unique cast of characters with a good story(hopefully). I’ll have more as that develops.

Speaking of developing, I’m glad to say that we are almost finished with the Nash Gray production, and I’ve got the start of a rough cut going, which also leads to the fact that my next class is editing, and that means two months are left of school. Not to be out done with my momentum, I did say that I’ve started working on two scripts, which is a breath of fresh air, because now I can take some time developing these projects, even if I still have the Appreciate What You Got reshoots, and that commercial that got put on hold.

I’ll be doing some videos soon for the CK Project, and getting back into working on some Geek on Geek things as well. I promise that I will be back to full swing with everything soon, just life got in the way this months and most of next.

This is the Director, and that’s a wrap.

Too Much Passion? Keep It Up

So, people like to be entertained, and there are many forms to be entertained by. Watching movies, playing music, making costumes….even pretending to be living in medieval times, and being a knight. That’s why we have hobbies, that is why we do the things we do. We like to pass time, with our hobbies, that’s what gives us relief, that’s what brings us back to our centers. We live to pursue our passions, or at least we should.

So, what happens when it doesn’t become fun anymore? Do we try and find a way to rekindle that passion(hey, I was out of the superhero thing for many years, egad!), or do we force ourselves to continue when we are clearly burnt out on that passion? What becomes of that passion when someone clearly wants something, but isn’t willing to work for it? What happens when you find people of the like mind, and their burn out starts to make it less enjoyable to you?

Look, hobbies are just that hobbies. Some people feel an obligation to continue on a hobby because that’s all they know. Look, if you are burnout, just quit, nobody’s going to stop you, and if you’re unhappy or in denial about change, then stop. Don’t bring a cloud down on people who want to enjoy what is there for the hobby, just because you can’t except yourself leaving that hobby. Then you push people back, and politic the shit out of it so that other’s are as miserable as you are. There was a time that you had a passion for these hobbies and now it’s like you have a cross to bare, just stop. All it does is seem to make you an asshole because you can’t except change.

I digress, I got a bit off course for a minute there. I have a passion for life, and I have a passion that covers a vast amount of different things in my life. I’ll admit that I’m finding my limits in some of those areas, but at the same time, I can take a moment and reset my mind, because I am passionate about those things. Quite frankly, I don’t want to lose those passions because it makes me who I am. I’m passionate about comics and superheroes. This world is shitty enough as it is with trolls trying to take other’s down because I think it’s funny or that they want to change the status quo in a negative way. People would rather watch you fall and spit on you, than to help you up and push you to succeed.

I’m passionate about geeky things, and I don’t have to share the specific subject that someone else is passionate about, to get excited to watch the fire when someone talks about how awesome frisbee golf is. I love the passion that people share when they talk about professional wrestling. I was there too, once, and I kind of got out of it, because I found it getting too stale, but God damn, I like watching my boy pretend that he’s John Cena, and his reactions to watching Raw or Smackdown. I like when my girls get all excited about Monster High and the new dolls that come out.

Passion is the only thing that should motivate us in life. If you’re passionate about making money and shopping, than you should be fired to do what it is that helps you get there. I’ve been a slave working jobs to make some money just to survive and support my family. I know what it’s like not to like going to work because there’s no passion there. I’m fortunate enough that I like the people I deal with on a regular basis to keep me going. Yes, this has been a very motivated blog this time, not only to vent my own frustrations with the world, but because this is something that I need to remind myself of as well.

Please, if you ever feel that the passion is gone, and the hobby doesn’t really interest you anymore, just stop. Let the other people continue to enjoy it until they stop having that passion. There’s no need to drag other people down into your misery with you.

This is the director and I’m calling this blog a wrap.

You Can’t Catch The Time That Flew

What a weekend this has been! I can’t believe that I’ve been going strong all weekend long. Friday, we filmed. Saturday, we did a Parade of 1000 Flags, and an event for the Relay for Life, with a car show, and fund raiser. I only stated part way because I was uploading the dailies from Friday(which means a timeline of all the footage filmed), and I tried to get my homework for the week down. Today, we filmed, and I’m uploading my dailies from today, as a matter of fact, they are encoding right now.

So, with that being said, there were lesson learned this weekend from the director/filmmakers point of view. One, maybe plan on being on site a couple hours early, because things can take longer than expected, when getting started. It felt like we were running behind schedule every shoot day that we had. I think we could have better planned it, and maybe with more people with a larger skill pool might be able to get everything done on set sooner.

Second thing learned- it doesn’t hurt to quadruple check-in and make sure everyone is on the same page(I hate when people flake out). I get that this being a non-paid gig, might turn people off from working, but if you say that you will, please be a person of your word. I’m trying to get to the point of actually making money while doing this, and being able to pay people to film my projects.

Third, plan on filming only a few scenes per day, I think that what I was doing and with all the shots and angles, I felt like I didn’t quite get everything filmed the way I wanted, but at least I do have some good choices to pick from. I had to drop part of the scene, but having extra batteries and memory cards will help with that. I think we over worked the machinery.

Fourth, I discovered that I don’t have time for unprofessionalism on my set, while I love who I work with, I’m too focused to have to deal with people goofing off during filming. I mean seriously, I’m trying to make a name for myself, and this is my calling card to get there. Help me get my calling card and I’ll be able to pay you.

Fifth, with this crew I’m working with, I have a few new people and it really is becoming a well oiled team. I’m glad to bring in the people that I have. My cinematographer has brought an experienced eye to the game, and it’s seemed to bring my game up a bit, and I’m proud of the way we work together. I think it took to first day to find our rhythm, but I think we’re on the verge of getting things done at a better pace.

The final thing I’m really discovering is that post production is going to be the saving grace, because we can fix our mistakes there. Also, my cinematographer has experience there and we’ll be able to have a productive work flow there. I can’t say that I’ve ever been this excited and nervous about doing a project in my life. It started to feel a bit overwhelming, but I’ve gained confidence in the process and the support that I have behind me.

As a side note, learning the financial part of getting this movie made is also a wondrous experience, and this is something that I can put in my hat for the next big project. This is the director, coming off of the first week of filming #NashGray, and that’s a wrap.

Doomsday Clock IS Ticking?!?

I’m sitting here, on my couch(and not at the studio), thinking about tomorrow. This is a big day, and this is the day the thoughts become tangible. Luckey Bom Films first real production, complete with on set locations and a larger crew than I’ve ever worked with(yes, I know I’ve said this before), but it still puts me in awe of the amazing things and amazing people that I have gotten to work with. I’m ready for this adventure!

Again, and yes I also know that this has been mentioned, I’m down to my last three months of school. That’s fucking insane! How the hell did I get this far? I mean first I was off of work, then I was prepping for life outside of my current career, and poof, I started film school and I’m almost finished with it. Three months and I’ll have a Bachelors degree in Digital Filmmaking. With that, the real fun begins as I start to look for work, and work on other projects that I’ve gotten started, and polishing up my demo reel. This is where the insanity comes in from.

The craziest part of this whole scenario is the fact that I’m loving the busy that I’ve got going on. I love the projects that I get to work on, and the learning I’m doing besides my school work. I plan on being a jack-of-all-trades when it comes to the entertainment business. The best part is that I’ll have a bit of free time to actually sit back and learn all the new stuff that I hadn’t had the time for(I’m coming for you Adobe After Effects). I can hear Little Chris saying, “Dad, make me into the Flash, I’ll put on my costume for you.” My kid’s are the cutest, and they’re excited that they get to be apart of this amazing adventure with me. Chris wants to learn how to use the camera, and Lily’s interest is in practical effects at this time.

One of the more interesting aspects that I started to learn about this week was about using Indiegogo and trying to crowd fund my project. I did start reaching out to friends, and I see some support starting to show up. Most have to wait until they get paid before they can contribute. Let me say this now, Thank you for helping out, it means so much that you’re interested in seeing where I can go with my artistic vision, and I won’t forget you when I make something out of myself and my ragtag crew of friends helping me out. It’s starting slow, but I think as we go and I gain momentum, I’ll put out a trailer, and some snippets to try and entice people into helping getting this funded. I started with a $500 limit to test the waters, but if I could get more, than that would be so amazing, and I could use that money to get better equipment and supplies for the film, and some nice food that would help keep our own pockets safe from the harsh realities of debt.

Speaking of  Indiegogo, I’ve got to learn how to market better, this is something I haven’t failed to notice, but it would help me draw more attention to my YouTube pages as well, and maybe my blogging. So, with this crowd funding, I’m looking on creative perks to drive interest for things we can offer. Why not a Nash Gray mug, or some really cool crap like that? I wouldn’t mind having one(especially since I made the logo).

I think one of the best parts of this experience is that I’m bringing in my eldest offspring to help do make-up on the largest days of shooting, you know with the whole cast type of deal. I’m glad that I have the wife and kids on this project, maybe they’ll want to do more in the future(assuming that they don’t want to kill me first).

Well, tomorrow’s the big day, and I should get cleaned up and go to sleep. I’ve got plenty to do this weekend, and all of it isn’t about filming the movie. As we’ve been doing for most of the last week we’re gonna #DoItForAndy, #NashGray #BennyMightLive. This is the director, and that’s another wrap.