Connecting Flights on The Weight Loss Journey

Sometimes, we get wonder what it is that puts us on this earth and wonder what’s our purpose here? For as long as I remember, I’ve always wanted to entertain, and make people happy. As I got older and matured, I was fascinated with the idea of causing different emotions by my performances. There was something that was always intoxicating about the power of influence.

I’ve also always wanted to help people, sometimes that ended up being a fault, because not everyone wants help, and they’d throw it in my face, or take advantage of my good graces. So, I’ve become cautious over the years because of it. The expression of experience is the best teacher is very true, almost unfortunate to a fault at times. I’ve had a lot of lessons taught to me because of this.

Sometimes, these lessons come in unexpected ways, and lessons that I wouldn’t expect happened. I had a time where I felt like I stopped growing and learning, and it caused me to be unsatisfied. In all honesty, I would love for Luckey Bom Films to be the thing that takes me where I want to go in life, but I think the divine plan is to have The CK Project is where I’m truly going to make my mark in this world, which is just as worthy to be an end goal.

This has been an incredible journey so far, and I’ve met some of the most inspiring and beautiful people by taking this journey, by sharing, and supporting others who are trying to be more healthy. I think one of the most interesting things about the weight loss journey is that there are many ways to get there, and there is no one right way to get to the ultimate goal. I think that those who lose the weight without weight loss surgery is awe inspiring. That’s not to take away from those of us who had the surgery because it takes just as much work to lose the weight, the surgery is just the “tool” to help get the jump start on the journey.

Being involved with the weight loss community, especially for those who had the surgery. I’ve had networked with all these people through Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and these people inspire me to do better. The voyage has made us a type of family, bonded by the fact that we share similar experiences. For some of us, the weight was gained because of depression, and that’s why we appreciate what the journey has done for us. These beautiful souls still have  doubts that they’ll make it through the process. Hell, I have days that I think I won’t make it, and another commonality I see is that there are times we all view ourselves as the heaviest version of ourselves, and I’ve discovered that is something that doesn’t ever really seem to leave.

I’ve seen some people give up on the journey as they felt that they’ve lost all the weight they will ever, and sometimes that brings part, if not all the weight back for others. As long as people find their happiness, then I’m happy for them because it’s important to be happy. I still remember what it’s like to not be happy with myself, and the rage that came with it. I just know that I’m not ready to stop, until  I get to the ultimate goal.

I think the biggest motivator for me is the fact that I’m in competition with myself. I’m pushed by the numbers that I see, because I feel that in the least, I should be able to hit the bare minimum, and yes, I’ve not had motivation to get even the minimum some days. Having those lazy days is what makes us human, and I’m not ashamed. I remember making excusing as to why I wasn’t doing something, and again there are days that I find myself doing that, but at least it isn’t the end of the world. In that end, I do keep pushing myself to do better, and find ways to grow, even in ways I never expected.

Even if the weight loss journey has established me in a community, it’s even more amazing how much it’s effected the rest of my life. I find losing the weight and having a better self-image, has lead me to being a better parent, and husband. It’s helped me better in my creative endeavors as well. That motivation has shown me what I’m capable of doing, and I want to see how far I can take it.

To those whom I am in communications with in the weight loss journey category, I want to say thank you for the words of encouragement. I’ve enjoyed watching you in your successes and I feel blessed to be able to add to your support system. Nobody should have to go through something like this by themselves. There should be nothing but support and encouragement, because it’s the fertilizer that helps with personal growth. It’s a shame we live in a world where more people want to be “trolls” and tear other people down.

On a final thought: live, love, and speak your truth. Don’t ever falter from who you are, because that’s the bravest thing anyone can do. With that, I’m the Director, and that’s a wrap.

Where Did The Weekend Go?

To start out this blog, I should fill you in on where my weekend went… The family and I went out to town to spend part of the day in Burbank, while waiting for Autumn to reach LAX from Florida. As we were there, we went to a couple of prop stores, and a Film shop to do some looking around.

Film Tools was the name of the shop, and it had so much, that I need to go back down there soon, and look some more, but I think that I’ll end up taking part of my crew with me to help make decisions. I picked up some fog in a can, for the short I’m getting ready to do, and some colored gels for lighting. The kids were overwhelmed, and they got a lesson to boot while we were there.

I think they were most fascinated by the tracks that you could use for moving the camera around for smooth tracking shots. The got to learn about Apple and Cherry boxes while they were at it. Plus they learned a little about lighting a flags that help manipulate that lighting. Little Chris got a bit overloaded with information.

We then proceeded to go to the mall to kill a few hours before we were to go to the airport to pick up the oldest. It was an adventure, but I find that malls are becoming a bit disappointing anymore. The lack of variety in stores has become morose, and it seems that all they are are clothing stores anymore.

So from the mall in Burbank to the airport, was about seventeen miles, yet it took us just about a hour to get there. Once we arrived we hung out, got coffee, and waiting until Autumn’s flight was supposed to arrive at ten-thirtyfour pm, yet it was delayed until about eleven. Her brother was so happy to see her, and she had a good time at Disney World.

So, we’ll fast forward to two in the morning, and we finally get home. I didn’t fall asleep until four since I had to wind down. LA traffic sucks at almost anytime of day. The airport is horrible since it’s so busy, but we made it in one piece.

That’s where the title comes into play. I woke up around nine in the morning, and laze around most of the day. I didn’t get motivated until about three and then we went out and did a few things. Saturday felt kind of like a waisted day, but it also ended up being my day of rest. It doesn’t help that the heat of 100 plus degrees haunts this little town of Ridgecrest. That’s what happens when you’re about at the back door of Death Valley. No shit! It gets that hot, and yet it’s still “a dry heat”. Hot is hot, no matter the form.

Sunday faired a bit better as we went for a three mile hike up behind the college. Unfortunately, little Chris hasn’t been feeling the best because of the heat, and has had a heat related headache for over a week. I can’t imagine what that would be like for an autistic child. I think it might be a bit worse.

After the hike, we went to Wal-Mart to cool off, and decided to eat at the Subway there. I’m making the “smart, healthy choices” these days. We then came home and I decided to take a nap as the heat had worn me out as well. While the nap was great, my mind wasn’t in a mood to do the work that I had planned on doing that day. Hence the big gap between blogs.

Well, summer is officially here, the heat index is outrageous, and I’m working outside for at least eight hours a day. The plus is the the longest day of the year is past, and the days will start getting shorter. For such a short season, it always seems that summer takes the longest to get through. I’m handling it far better than I did last year, when I felt like I was on the verge of passing out, everyday I was at work, and I’m not sweating like a water fall anymore. I guess that’s what happens when there’s a loss of about twenty percent body fat.

I’m going to be taking some extra classes to learn IT support, and possibly my Personal Trainer certs. This is going to be an exciting adventure as I’ve also got for projects in various stages, ready to film. It’s going to keep me busy, that’s for sure.

Any way, this is the Director, and that’s a wrap.