Not This Night

I’m sitting here and it’s about a half hour until Christmas is over. I have my two week check up at night-fortyfive in the morning and I can’t seem to get my mind to shut off. I would love to say that it was because I had such an awesome day that the adrenaline is still kicking, but it’s not. Now, I’m not saying that today was a bad day, being Christmas and all, we did the routine in going to my parent’s house, and watching the kids enjoy their presents. It just felt average.

Nash Gray premiered this morning, and I think the viewing seemed to go alright for a first day out. I wish the views were tripled, but I’m not going to complain, and I hope more people end up finding it and liking it. With what reviews that I did get, people seemed to like it, and for that I’m glad. I’m happy to have been able to finally get my first real production out, and now I’m already of thinking of the documentaries that I’m working on and the short that I should be filming in February. It’s the short that I think might be on my mind currently. I’m thinking about story boards, and maybe fixing up some dialogue so that the story has a bit of a more complete feel to it. I remember writing it and having a bit of things implied because it was supposed to be a short of around seven minutes.  I’m eager to get this one reshot and out of the way, as I have some people that I’m already committing too to tell their story. People are interesting to say the least.

Going back to the weight loss journey though, I’m not nervous or anything about the appointment, but to say that I feel monumentally different would be an overstatement. I notice that fat that seemed to block my movements is gone, and that I move better, and the scale says that I’ve lost weight, but I don’t really feel different. More conscious about how  I eat for sure, and eating too fast tells on me. I just don’t feel so different, and I’m sure it’s just a phase.

I’ve been reading people on a Facebook Sleeve support page and I see so many different experiences about the surgery. I think the common one I’m seeing is the last minute jitters, after all I had those same feelings. It’s the end journey that is going to be good, once the fat is gone and life has changed, I think I’ll look back and say that it was worth it. I don’t want to think that I feel depressed because my habits have been forced to change so much.

I think that the unknown is what’s been getting me down, and it’s not about the weight loss journey anymore, but more about when I get that better job, and the bills that I’m going to be paying on for a very long time. I just need to tell myself that good things come to those who wait, and I’ve been working towards those good things for a long time now. I’m just glad that my depression isn’t like it was before, I do know that I’ll make it out of this just fine. There’s just a lot of reflection going on with me.

Maybe that’s another reason I’m starting to focus more on the next project….that seems to give me a bit of satisfaction knowing that I’m going to be creating something. So much to do, and now that I have a bit more free time, I need to get on some other projects started besides the movies. I think I’m going to test out some of my new equipment for pod casting this week and maybe bring in the new year with a new pod cast show, though I’m thinking of doing a few different ones as it is.

I’m finally getting somewhere in life that I want to be, and I hope that everyone who wants to, joins in watching the growth and creativity come out. This is the director and that’s a wrap. P.S. if you haven’t seen it yet, here is the link to Nash Gray https://youtu.be/881V4iLEhAY. If you like it, give it a like and subscribe to the channel, it’s still new, but more content will be added as soon as things get up and running more so than it is now.

Could You Speak Up, You’re Being Too Loud.

This has been a hectic few months, I for one have been totally focused on school, and not much of anything else. At least I wrote a little something last month. Not only have I been busy with school, but I’ve been trying to get myself to relax a bit since my anxiety about getting everything done has been high.

The big one- Nash Gray has a fully edited version that has been complete. I turned it into the teacher, and I seemed to have done very well on it. This version isn’t going to be seen by too many people as I want to have a final go with the whole film to tighten up some scenes, and come out with the best version of this film. There are so many people that I want to thank for this deal. First and foremost, my wife Sarah. She’s been through this whole adventure with me, beginning three years ago when I took the step forward and go back to school. For this project, she was the assistant that I needed when I needed her.

I want to thank Ed Smith, my friend and creative partner. He gave me his ideas and we worked on them until we could come up with a story that would work for our first time doing a movie together. Ed was reluctant about playing the musical persona that has been his for over twenty years and I think he did well, and I was more than happy to bring life to the rest of his band.

Not too be out done, Celeste Joy Greer, my cinematographer. Her experience and guidance has helped me develop my “camera eye” and I’ve become a better filmmaker because of her. A thousand thank you’s would never be enough to show the gratitude I have, and I can’t wait until we get started on the next big thing.

Also, big thanks go out to Alisa Wiggin for coming in and doing makeup. It was a joy to have you do something you love for me. Kurt Mitchell, thanks for stepping in and doing sound, I appreciate that we could work together again, you are now and will always be a good friend to me. Also to Terry Bays, thank you for everything you’ve ever done when I’ve asked, you stepped up when I needed you, but my concern is with your health brother, and that’s why I had you take a step back. You’re family and we love you. I need you around for plenty of other things. A final crew thanks goes out to my friend Rodney Connors; we’ve acted together, you’ve acted for me, but I appreciate that you helped my cast this thing, and found our counter to Nash in Celese.

Now onto the cast, Ed seeing you come out and perform was awesome, glad you got the bug now. Curtis Koller, you had the chance to play Benny Kelley, and that wasn’t an easy task to play the tragic character of this movie. You stepped up not only as acting, but crewed as well, and I appreciate you being a part of this team. Dean, you playing Jake is against character for you, and while it started out rough, you really found yourself in this character and I’m glad that you enjoyed doing the work as well. Freddy Ferris Jr., it was nice to add a new face to the people I’ve been lucky enough to work with and I’m glad that you were apart of this process. You really dedicated to the role of Andy King, and I am glad to call you friend.

For the females of this film. Celese Sanders, you who lead the charge of female bad ass. Thanks for coming in and putting up with the hot room and warm weather. It was fun, and I also count myself to have made a friend out of you. Britney Brown, the one person that I wrote a role specifically for. Thank you for bringing your A game the entire time, even at the casting call. You’re talented and I look forward to seeing what you do in the future, if I find myself writing a character that needs your talent, I’m gonna get a hold of you. Finally, Amber Still, my stage wife, and friend. Thank you! I love your talent, and hope that we’ll find a chance to work together again as well.

For the final thank you…..To every single teacher that I’ve had put input into this Capstone project, you’re advice and guidance helped me, and I think I got a decent first film out of this. I know that the way I went with this project was a bit ambitious, but it was well worth the story to have been told in the end.

Not to forget the friends and family who said yes to allowing us to film at your places. Thank you for letting us film there, and I’m glad you all didn’t feel too put out by this filmmaker. Plus the owner and operator of KSSI radio on 102.1fm, thanks for doing the narration for me Jon. You are awesome and I’ll always support your radio station.

I’m gonna leave the thank you’s here for now, and call it a wrap, but I’m gonna put something out soon to explain more on where I’ve been, and what the future holds.

Doomsday Clock IS Ticking?!?

I’m sitting here, on my couch(and not at the studio), thinking about tomorrow. This is a big day, and this is the day the thoughts become tangible. Luckey Bom Films first real production, complete with on set locations and a larger crew than I’ve ever worked with(yes, I know I’ve said this before), but it still puts me in awe of the amazing things and amazing people that I have gotten to work with. I’m ready for this adventure!

Again, and yes I also know that this has been mentioned, I’m down to my last three months of school. That’s fucking insane! How the hell did I get this far? I mean first I was off of work, then I was prepping for life outside of my current career, and poof, I started film school and I’m almost finished with it. Three months and I’ll have a Bachelors degree in Digital Filmmaking. With that, the real fun begins as I start to look for work, and work on other projects that I’ve gotten started, and polishing up my demo reel. This is where the insanity comes in from.

The craziest part of this whole scenario is the fact that I’m loving the busy that I’ve got going on. I love the projects that I get to work on, and the learning I’m doing besides my school work. I plan on being a jack-of-all-trades when it comes to the entertainment business. The best part is that I’ll have a bit of free time to actually sit back and learn all the new stuff that I hadn’t had the time for(I’m coming for you Adobe After Effects). I can hear Little Chris saying, “Dad, make me into the Flash, I’ll put on my costume for you.” My kid’s are the cutest, and they’re excited that they get to be apart of this amazing adventure with me. Chris wants to learn how to use the camera, and Lily’s interest is in practical effects at this time.

One of the more interesting aspects that I started to learn about this week was about using Indiegogo and trying to crowd fund my project. I did start reaching out to friends, and I see some support starting to show up. Most have to wait until they get paid before they can contribute. Let me say this now, Thank you for helping out, it means so much that you’re interested in seeing where I can go with my artistic vision, and I won’t forget you when I make something out of myself and my ragtag crew of friends helping me out. It’s starting slow, but I think as we go and I gain momentum, I’ll put out a trailer, and some snippets to try and entice people into helping getting this funded. I started with a $500 limit to test the waters, but if I could get more, than that would be so amazing, and I could use that money to get better equipment and supplies for the film, and some nice food that would help keep our own pockets safe from the harsh realities of debt.

Speaking of  Indiegogo, I’ve got to learn how to market better, this is something I haven’t failed to notice, but it would help me draw more attention to my YouTube pages as well, and maybe my blogging. So, with this crowd funding, I’m looking on creative perks to drive interest for things we can offer. Why not a Nash Gray mug, or some really cool crap like that? I wouldn’t mind having one(especially since I made the logo).

I think one of the best parts of this experience is that I’m bringing in my eldest offspring to help do make-up on the largest days of shooting, you know with the whole cast type of deal. I’m glad that I have the wife and kids on this project, maybe they’ll want to do more in the future(assuming that they don’t want to kill me first).

Well, tomorrow’s the big day, and I should get cleaned up and go to sleep. I’ve got plenty to do this weekend, and all of it isn’t about filming the movie. As we’ve been doing for most of the last week we’re gonna #DoItForAndy, #NashGray #BennyMightLive. This is the director, and that’s another wrap.

It’s Alive!!!

Boy, it’s been awhile since I blogged. I’m sorry for that, but life has been crazy. That’s because I’ve spent a good portion of my waking hours working on the Nash Gray script, and getting things ready for filming. That’s right! We are going to be filming as of next weekend. Three more months and I’m done with school, my blood, sweat, tears(well mostly sweat)  has come to this final stretch.

With all that being said, we had our first table read, and I finally got to see what all the hard work coming together is going to look like. It’s exciting to see something you spend so much hardworking and energy on coming to life. I see where Dr. Frankenstein got excited to bring his creature to life. It’s an amazing feeling to have a thought, and watch it become something tangible, something real. My creature, and I thank my partner Ed for working on this with me.

So, the plan is to start filming next weekend. This fact both excites me, and scares me, because I keep thinking to myself, please don’t fuck this up. The best thing is that I know that this group is going to have fun, and that’s part of the process. After every busy moment that I’ve had, I most defiantly know that this is what I was built for. The long days and busier nights, I wouldn’t change it for anything.

There are different factors that make this a challenge. The first one is I’m going to have a larger crew, this is a blessing because this should make for an easier time by not having to multi-task so much. The only thing is that I haven’t worked with all of them before, but again, I’m up to the challenge. Here’s to working with new and wonderful people.

The other half of this is the fact that I’ve only had to work with two people on screen at a time, and having six is going to take some thought, but, I know most of the cast, and they are dear friends, so it’ll be fun. This is the challenge I look forward too most, is to see how we get this going. I know that we’ll be joking around and having a good time between takes, because that’s the kind of person I am, but it will most defiantly be a great experience, and I expect that we’ll form bonds, and friendships out of this.

Three more months…

This is the director and that’s a wrap.

 

Pump Up The Jam on My Toast!

God, that work flow is going so smoothly today. So, while I was working on homework, I was thinking about working with one of my actors yesterday. So he could start to get a feel for the character that he will be playing, and the kind of motivation that I’m looking for in his performance. I even got Ed to come in a read his part of Nash to see how they sounded together. Sarah was there to read the other parts so I could get the feel of the read. I’m so glad to have a great team to help out for sure.

As my actor Curtis was hanging out for several hours with me, I decided to show him some of my older work…. boy have I come a long way from the beginning. I’m really getting better at being a visual storyteller for sure.

I get to doing my homework and I started thinking about the Appreciate What You’ve Got reshoots, and I decided that I’m going to just reshoot the whole thing and this time get the original vision that I had intended(as I write this, I’m shaking, not sure of excitement, or the fact that I haven’t eaten in several hours). I also know that because of the experience of location scouting this week, I’m going to have to make some revisions for Nash Gray, but I think the story will be better for it as those alterations will be put in. Hell, I’m excited as well as hungry, so I’m going with it.

I’m pumped and my fingers are going constantly without really stopping. I started an account with Indiegogo so that we can start crowdfunding our projects, which in turn help make them better. I’ve reshaped the first script and sent it off, and I’m waiting on my food. My weekend disappeared. We had a yard sale for Relay for Life for our Geeks United Against Cancer, so Friday and Saturday hours were from  6am -11pm both days and I have no regrets, but I wish I had that time to breathe, because Monday is coming up on us way too soon.

Did I tell you that I’m loving what I’m doing? I’m pretty sure I’ve said it at least once or twice somewhere. Anyway, that’s a quick thought on how this weekend’s going as I’m trying to work on more location scouting this week, and we have a casting call coming up next weekend. Hit me up on one of my various pages and ask me where to go, so that I can point you in the right direction.  This is the Director and that’s a wrap!