Friday the 13th, Anniversary

So, tomorrow is my seventeenth anniversary with my wife. She’s probably the single reason that I’ve been successful in the things I’ve done so far. She supports, and pushes me to do better, and quite frankly, if I didn’t have that support, I wouldn’t be where I am today.

So, it seems a bit odd that we would get married on a Friday the thirteenth, but I’m not a believer in superstitions, as a matter of fact, they tend to work in my favor more than against me anyway. Seventeen years is a long time. In my generation, it seems uncommon to be together that long, and yet, here we are.

So, for a successful relationship, I’ve got some tips for anybody trying to have a long lasting relationship. First of all is communications: it took me a long time to learn this, as a matter of fact, I think it took both of us to learn this fact. Something that can be coupled with this is honesty. I know that sometimes truth can be a bitter pill to swallow, but it’s better to be honest about everything. Secrets tend to fester into something bigger than it should ever be. I know that sometimes people fuck up, it’s better to say something then let it eat you up inside. They know, somehow they’re smart enough to know when something is wrong.

Something I learned along the way that I wish I would have known in the beginning is don’t rush into anything. The best thing is to enjoy the relationship for what it is before complicating it with something like children, or even marriage can sometimes be too much. Autumn came into our lives fairly quickly, and we had to grow up as a couple quick. Neither one of us has any regrets, but as a reflection, we could have grown as a couple before the complications of pregnancy came in.

Not everything is smooth, and love isn’t perfect. This is truth, in most aspects of life anyway. You’re your own person, with your own opinions, and let’s face it, as an individual, you’re not always going to see “eye to eye” with everybody. Some days,  you’re gonna hate that face of the other person, but if you decide to stick it out, you’ll be able to accomplish so much in your lives together.

There’s an energy that happens when you start a relationship that’s called The New Relationship Energy.  It’s that feeling you get when the relationship is new and exciting. You get tricked into thinking that everything is perfect, and that person is perfect. It would be great if this could last, however that veil will be lifted up at some point, and then that’s when you discover the things your partner does that drives you crazy. Maybe you don’t like the snoring they do when you guys sleep. Maybe you don’t like their bathroom habits. That shit matters, and quite frankly can end up being the deal breaker for some people. I have my faults, and she has her’s, but we look past it to work on being a family.

While we’ve been married seventeen years, we’ve been together almost eighteen. I think part of what makes us work is the fact that we were friends first. I think a solid friendship helps, because essentially your partner’s gonna know you better than your best friend, unless you’re lucky enough to marry your best friend. I’ve found a best friend in Sarah, and I’ve gotten to know her better than my best friend.

When you get into a relationship, you becomes a we, and as a we, you become one. There are habits that you’re eventually going to pick up from your partner, and there’s things that your partner might pick up that will drive you crazy somewhere. That’s something I can only say you’ll have to figure out on your own. However, a word of cation: if you have kids, be of one mind when child rearing, because kids, can sense when there’s a difference of opinion, and they will use it to their advantage.

As a last bit of reflection, I’m lucky that Sarah had experience with raising her brother and sisters, it helped me find a path to being a parent. While I don’t always seem to give my thanks to her online or talk about all the current issues plaguing our relationship, I think that’s in our favor, because people like to cause trouble at times, and again, people have opinions. I know that I have some very different opinions about life choices than some of the people we know and hang out with, but I respect people for what they believe in and I would never force my opinion on them.

So to my wife, happy anniversary! You’ve stuck with my crazy ass so far, and I hope you want to continue for at least a little while longer. This is the Director, and that’s a wrap.

Outside’s Gonna Melt Your Face, But I’m Feeling Fine.

The summer heat is cooking, and with this weather last year everyday felt like the scene from Raiders of the Lost Art,  in where the Nazi’s open the Ark of the Covenant, and their faces melt off. However, I’ve come prepared more for the heat this year then I have been in the past several years. Where being on the job in years past, my back would be a sweaty water fall, it’s now just a trickle. I do still think that the heat sucks, but at least I don’t feel like I’m about to die everyday.

I did my two week weigh–in on Friday, and discovered myself down another three-point-one pounds. I’ve discovered that that’s about what I’ve been averaging for the last few months, is about three to four pounds every two weeks. That’s not bad considering that one to two pounds a week is what would be classified normal. Looking at pants sizes of the biggest at fifty-four, and looking at the waist of a forty-two, is a big difference.

That brings my total down one hundred-twenty-one-point-two pounds. I joke and say that I’ve lost my wife in weight. It’s about true, and I’m good with that. I still get those moments of being nervous of being caught in a stall. Especially since the hundred-plus weather isn’t helping my motivation at all. I also went for a walk on Thursday after work, and discovered that I had burnt the top of my head on the walk.36329976_2091643187757945_3984035268909858816_o

I took the above picture on my phone on that Thursday around six-thirty in the evening. I like how the shadows give a bit of a serious look. As I walk, I think about anything and everything. I realized that this is my meditation, as I’m always in my head when I walk. I guess you could say that this is my time at “church”. A time where I have conversations with God. I know that it gives me the chance to just walk, and not think about the physical activity that I’m doing.

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This is the best I’ve felt in a long time. I took this for my weigh-in update photo for the social media. When I saw the scale read three-hundred-eight-point-seven pounds, it’s truly a great feeling. I haven’t been this light, since my oldest child was born, and that was seventeen years ago. The changes, both physically and mentally are incredible. My body is getting closer to my self-image.

It’s incredible to think that as I get ever closer to my fortieth year in life, that I have finally taken control back of who I am. It feels that I let most of my twenties and thirties kind of keep me down, and dictate my uncontrollable self. A feeling of helplessness and hatred for the decisions that I was making. I was lashing out at myself because I let myself get a certain way. I have that control now. I’m not letting life pass me by. I’m finding that strength and happiness that I deserve as a person.

Speaking of goals, I have a few updates about the other parts of my life. One, we are almost ready to go full ahead and film our short The Reunion, that’s the official title of what was previously known as The Dialogue. I’m excited to be working with the casted individuals, as one of them has worked with me, and for me in other projects before. Plus the new blood joining us really seems to be like a good guy as well. I can’t wait to get started so that we can get this one in the “can” and continue on with the other things we’re planing on doing.

The other news, is related to the Geekultural Experience. I’ve been talking to a writer on Tumblr about checking out his Manga and this will be one of those I’ll do a review on for my geek media. I think this is the start of something that could help boost his, and our brands together and I look forward to seeing what other connections that I’ll be doing through the various platforms of social media.

As a reflection of the what’s going on in my personal life: My oldest child will be seventeen years old this Wednesday, and I’m both proud, and surprised by this fact. She’s grown into a beautiful person, and she’s made me very proud of the accomplishments that she’s set for herself. She also makes me feel incredibly old because she is turning seventeen, but I look forward to spending the day with her and watching the fireworks, because she shares the day with the birth of our country’s independence.

Well, this is the Director with another blog, and that’s a wrap.

Phase Two: Evolution

Well tomorrow is the day, it’s the day that I’ve been waiting to reach for the last three years to reach, my graduation. I’m graduating with Magna Cum Laude and then my future starts. It’s the moment that I go from the Film Student Life to the life of an Alumni of the Los Angeles Film School. This journey has brought many things to me. A new focus in life, a better situation mentally, and great connections that I’ll continue to have for the rest of my life.

I remember when I started school that I was lost, my depression was at it’s strongest, and I needed a way out. Finding this school online and taking the chance on going for a dream is what I needed to find myself. This journey has helped evolve me to the person that brings content to people on a regular basis…Sure, it isn’t always the way that a filmmaker would seem too, but even this writing of the blog has helped me with the writing that I put towards all my screen plays and helps me to attach the emotion that I need to the characters that I bring to life.

I was meant to be a filmmaker, once I got to actually concentrate on being behind the camera, and calling action, I knew that this was what I was meant to do. This journey has helped me become the best version of me. I’m happier, and so much less stressed.

I’m not completely sure where the next phase of my journey is going to take me, but I’m liking the changes that it’s bringing to my life, and I know that I’ll find success at what I’m doing, but I just don’t know the exact direction that it’s going.

I think the best part of everything is that those I love the most will be there, my parents, my kids, my wife, and my best friend Echo, who’s been by my side through so much. I’m glad that they can share with me in the celebration of my success.

The next couple of weeks will be crazy, as I’ve got plenty of plans going on, but once this is done, I will be putting a meeting together so that we can plan the next steps to getting some content brought out. Again, that’s when I’m happiest.

After the graduation, I get to go to Vegas and do adult things. I think that it’ll be a good way to send of the “old” me, and say hello to the new version that has become far more goal orientated. The baggage that weighed me down for so long has gone, and now all I have is hope, and positivity. I know things will not be dark for me again. So, if you would like, here’s the link to the live stream of the ceremony for tomorrow at 1:00pm http://www.ustream.tv/channel/los-angeles-film-school. I would love to hear that people watched and routed for me as we close a chapter and flip the page to something new.

I’m still getting in my steps as I got in 13,486 for the day, and the weight loss journey is still going strong. It’s just kind of taking a back seat to my film production for the moment. I’m still learning that the different aspects of my branding move at different times. The CK Project has had to opportunity to shine for the last several months, and I’ve enjoyed sharing the journey that I’ve had so far, but it’s time for other accomplishments to take the front and center.

Once everything really gets going, I’ll be able to bring out more content on all sides of my branding “empire”, as I find that it’s already become a full-time job, but it’s also what I enjoy. It’s funny that by staying busy, I’m feeling like I’m having the time of my life. I’ll report from Vegas, I’ll guarantee that. So with that being said, this is the director, and that’s a wrap.

Projects=Experience

I’ve been looking at different jobs in the entertainment industry, and I’ve come to the conclusion that the things I’m working towards doing are going to help me gain the experience that I need to help me continue towards my future profession. Entertaining people has been a passion of mine since I was younger.  It started with me cracking jokes to help cheer my friends up.

I’ve been looking forward to getting a few of the podcasts projects off the ground.  I’ve been fascinated with the idea of doing a radio since I started listening to Mark and Brian, and I would love to bring out my thoughts on various subjects ranging from geek culture to politics. I even have ideas for a NSFW podcast that would allow me to discuss more adult content, and bring out my full force, uncensored, sense of humor.

As I move forward towards the end of school, I know that I’m going to be working on gaining a whole new level of experience.  Yes, I am starting my own production company, and yes, I would love to work with others.  As a person, I’ve learned that networking is key. I’ve been doing that for the last couple of years, and I think that it’s helped give me a chance to have better relationships with the people that I’ve gone on to network with.

Going through some life changing events of the last several years, I’ve grown quite a bit. I think that I’ve gotten my ego out of the way of my personal growth.  I used to think that I was going to do whatever it was to make it on my own, and I would let things get in my way of trying to succeed.  I’m now being a more positive person, not for anyone specifically, but myself.  Those who might benefit from the energy that I try to emit, I’m always glad that it helps.  Life it too short to dwell over the negative things, and we all need to enjoy life.

I just felt like I had to put something down tonight.