Lose And Gain

So, it’s been a while since I’ve done the official “weight-loss” update. Here goes; I gained four pounds. Yep, that’s the official update, I’m back up to 264 pounds. I’m not even mad, I knew the plateau’s and the weight gains would just all be apart of the process. So remember that!

You see the commercials on television and in print ads that someone can help you drop all the weight you want by a pill or a drink, with minimal work. It doesn’t work that way, ever. The truth is that while you will drop the weight, there will be times that you level out, and even gain some. Remember that it’s just part of the journey, and I know that’s the part that people hate.

It’s the plateau’s and the gains that cause most people to quit. I mean who wants to see the number stick or go up? We didn’t get into losing weight to see the momentum go anywhere but down? I gained five pounds, and I’ve worked so hard not to gain, what kind of bullshit is this?

I remember the first time I plateau’d after my surgery, God it was frustrating! Man it was the longest time before I dropped weight again(actually it was like three weeks). I don’t think I got mad at myself, but it was disappointing. Yet, I knew even then that it was part of the process, but after seeing my first hundred pounds just melt off, it sucked.

I think some habits have also snuck back into my life, especially since I’ve been in a bit of a stressful situation. I still have a win because one, I’m aware of it, and two, I’m still staying active. I’m going to overcome this situation. This is just another bump in the road that I have to overcome.

Mentally, I’ve been a bit down, but nothing too discouraging to know that I can’t overcome it. The mind is your most powerful weapon that you have. If you believe, then you can achieve. I know that my mind tells me that I can’t do things, like lunges. It doesn’t let me do lunges, and it makes me feel afraid that I’ll injure my knee. I don’t ever recall injuring my knee that way, but it makes it hard for me to go down without some sort of support. If I use a chair, then I know that I can do it.

On the positive side, I’ve been learning about various exercises from the Men’s Health Magazine, Twitter page. One of the exercises, that I’m excited about is the Mt. Climber, I’ve seen it done, but I realized that when I’ve done it before, I didn’t have the proper form for doing it. Another exercise is called the Halo. It’s an exercise that can use either a dumbbell or a kettlebell and it works the shoulders. This one excites me because it hits the shoulders from several angles. A third exercise that I’ve seen on video from Twitter is called a pike press. Modified, I think it would be a good exercise for me to do a shoulder press.

Another thing that I can say that is on the positive side, is that I’ve been looking into what kind of mindset an entrepreneur should have. I know that it’s going to take time, and a massive amount of hard work, but I will get there. I also know that I’m pushing for “maximum effort” because while one brand, or business is a full-time job, I have three that I’m working on.

With that, this is where things get a bit more convoluted, the CK Project is my oldest and most popular of my brands.  It’s great because I find that it’s the easiest to give most of my attention too. I support the fact that I get to help others with mental and physical guidance. This is what helped me become a happier person, and the privilege to help others has been fulfilling.

The birth of The Geekultural Experience actually spun-off of a group that I helped create called The Geeks of the IWV.  The group was formed as a way to help my friend cope with the death of her son, and it’s done fairly well. While The Geekultural Experience started on Facebook, it seems to have a better following on Twitter. I find that I get the news on Twitter so much easier more readily than Facebook.

While I enjoy my these brands and they fill a very different aspect of my life, the one I’m most looking forward to picking up is my film company, Luckey Bom Films. It’s more because I would love to have them all to be more equal then they are, but I’m sure this will get there at some point. It’s hard trying to keep things sorted out, and each get more attention, at different times when the focus can shift to what’s taking the more precedence at the time.

What would you like to see me talk about? Is there anything you think could help take my brands to another level? Leave a comment, and let’s start a dialogue, I’d love to interact and get feed back on the things I’m doing. After all, criticism is just a tool for improvement. This is the director, and that’s a wrap.

Rollercoaster Of Weight

I’ve been struggling with a few pounds here or there. I think it’s probably because I’ve gotten into a few bad habits, and the fact that it seems like it’s been a bit of a struggle to keep my momentum up with my activity, especially since it’s stupid hot outside, and it’s not very motivating going out in one-hundred-degree-plus weather. I know that I’ve got this; it’s just taking a bit more time to get back to that spot of motivation.

I know that I’ve come a long ways, and I still have a long ways to go, so I’m not discouraged about this. I will continue to make progress on my journey, and this is just a slight hiccup. The fluctuation in weight is always a small part of the journey to losing weight.

I know most people think that it’s just a drop and that’s the measure for success. Hell, there are even infomercials on television that try and sale that dream as well. Yet, the truth is, it doesn’t work that way. No muscle doesn’t weigh more than fat, it’s just more compacted. One pound of fat is equal to one pound of muscle, the only difference is in the amount of space each takes. A fat two-hundred-sixty-pound man takes up more space than a lean muscled two-hundred-sixty-pound man. The shape is very different as well.

I can attribute my current struggle with a couple of things. The first factor being the heat. Second factor is that I did change my work schedule, and everything that’s involved with that tends to be a bit of a distraction, however, I’m now working that out to maximize my walking. I’ve been able to get my ten-thousand steps in, even just barely at work.

Another factor that I have only let on in a few blogs is that I have life stressors that have been getting to me a little. With Sarah’s Crohn’s Disease being something that we’ve been trying to deal with for about a year, I find that the change in our life flow has disrupted a few things with me emotionally. Another being that we are now really seeing the after effect damage that the earthquake did to our house. It’s one of those things that I realize is going to take some extra money, that we don’t necessarily have access to handle it effectively.

This all goes along with the fact that I didn’t get that promotion at work. I’ve been trying to play it “cool” and act like it doesn’t bother me, but it does. To know that I’ve come a long way, and have grown so much, just to know that it wasn’t good enough, is very disheartening. I think it’s made worse by the fact that over all, I thought I had it in the bag. I was making plans for something that I thought was going to be guaranteed.

On the plus side, it has motivated me to seek other paths to take, and I’m going to put forth my best effort. I think the hardest part is selling myself. I have to find those tricks that would help show the better side that people want to see when looking for new employees. I’ve been settled in the same position forever, and the fact that it has taken me the last few years to finally find some amount of self-worth is really just the beginning.

I think that’s the valuable lesson here, is that improvement never stops. We continue to learn, we continue to grow. That’s part of the defining factors for self-improvement. I do know that I have value, I get that feeling all the time from the people I interact with. I do know that I’m an inspiration, because I get told that all the time too. I think I just need to find a better way to represent myself on paper.

Something I think is great, is the fact that I’ve gained so many skills since I’ve been doing this whole life change. I’ve become a filmmaker, a blogger, a podcaster, an apparel designer, writer, editor, motivational speaker, pop-culture reporter. That’s quite a list of skills, and I know that some people are thinking, how does that apply to the “real world” with “real jobs”.

I can’t completely answer that yet, but I do know that I’m making an impact and I plan on continuing on doing that. It fulfills a requirement inside of my soul. This helps my balance in life, and it keeps me striving to be better at being who I am.

I’m going to focus and get back on track. The creative part is more alive in me now than it has been in quite some time, and I’m feeling better about it. Now I do have a feeling I know where life plans on taking me, but I also know that I’m in for a bit of work to get to the success that I need to have. I know most people only see the success for people, but never really witness the work that gets put in to get there. This is it people, this is the tie for me to really push to get where I need to go, and not let myself get distracted like I have in the past.

This is the director, and that’s a wrap.