Hungry For More

I’m obsessed with numbers! I’ve been that way about time most of my life. My step counter just happens to be something that I’ve added to that obsession. With another round of 10,000 steps demolished today, that number gets easier to reach the more I get there.valentines10k

I also like that my pacer app keeps track of my weekly calories, and I reached 1754 for the week so far. I know that I’ve got some big things going on this weekend, so I plan on hitting the 10k at least two more times.

Besides the steps, I had a few people tell me today that they didn’t recognize me and had to do a double take. Being a fat person, it feels good to know that my hard work is paying off, and I really do feel better about the way I look. I can’t wait until I hit the ultimate goal, how much better will I look then. The movement is getting faster as well. I’m starting to feel the speed pick up.

Being as heavy as I was, I would move like a tortoise, at least that’s how I felt. I hated that I would get winded so easily as well. I’m continually breaking free from the bonds of my fatter self, and confidence is really showing as well(not that I was too insecure). I’m not ashamed of my body anymore. I look at it as a work in progress, but shit my arms are starting to get skinny, and I need to tighten up the skin a bit before I get wizard sleeve, and start looking like Gandalf the Grey.

So, today is Valentine’s day, and I’m reminded that I’m not really a fan of this holiday, however, my bride of seventeen years, is the greatest part to show my love too. She’s always a strong support, and is one of the most amazing people I know(as a side note, I know quite a few amazing people), plus she loves me beyond anything I’ve ever known.

I’m still trying to get some details figured out about getting a hiking club together, and I’m sure I can talk a few people I know in the real world to join. I think it would be great to enjoy nature with the great people I know. Would any of my readers possibly want to start something up, even if it was online, in a group and share our experiences with our hikes? We could get healthy together, and that’s always a movement that I would support.

I think that I need that positive idea in my life right now. I’ve had doubts going on in my head in other areas, but at least I haven’t tried to find the comfort in food. That’s a big step in the right direction. It’s just shit…I’ve got all of this stuff going on and getting ready to go on, that I’ve had a hard time focusing at what tasks are at hand at the moment. Listening to music through my head phones seem to help with those distractions.

Once the doctor clears me, I’m going to up my exercise game, and I can’t wait to start pushing myself more. I’ve not had skinny arms like this in some time and putting definition on them will be awesome, plus the fat burning with weights will help get my ass to where it wants to be.  So many possibilities are coming with this idea….

This is the director, and I think this is the end of another blog….so that’s a wrap!

‘Workin’ For The Weekend’

Wow, I’ve been doing extra walking while at work and did over 7,000 steps yesterday. I’m proud of myself, at the same time, I ended up kicking my own ass yesterday. So today, I’m taking it a bit easier. Overall, I’m feeling very good about myself.

As the two month check up lingers on for this weekend, I’m planing on trying to attempt three days of 10,000 steps, that’s if work doesn’t kick my ass first. I’m going to be making some great strides this year as I continue to lose weight. I’m still trying to be mindful on how I eat, and so far I’m doing pretty well. Though I do feel that I did get carried away for my son’s birthday party, but I’m back on track.

Speaking of eating, I’m not much of a fish person(aside from sushi, yeah, weird, right?), but last night Sarah had made some lemon pepper Tilapia fish. I actually kind of dug it. The most I’m generally a fan of is Tuna, which is the staple lunch meat for my lunches now. I take hot tea to work, so the coffee I used to get just isn’t needed anymore. I’ve been okay about that, though I remember when I was fueled by coffee. Smaller lunches, and it sometimes feels like it could end up being too much for me.

It’s a blessing to have the support that I’ve gotten through friends, and family. Sarah’s my biggest supporter(has been for the last seventeen years), and the biggest reason for my success. My kids are most defiantly up there, in particular my son. He’s always on top of making sure I have everything I need. Having an autistic kid is an experience, and I’m in awe at how amazing he is about things.

I think the next challenge to be put in front of me is how I’m going to handle the Super Bowl party. Usually, I would have eaten, and grazed throughout the entire game. It’s time to see if I can handle that type of social setting. I think I will do well, because in the end. I have my support system. I think the biggest fear is that I’ll get back into old habits.

Holy shit, I seem to like moving though, and I’m moving quicker than I was for a while at least. I’m sure that this is going to help keep me on track. I discovered that moving feels better for my joints than just standing in one spot. It feels kind of weird though, to think that moving would feel better than that.

I’m getting ready to do some yard work during the weekends. I think it will help keep my activity up, and I need to get my house in order. I’ve got plenty of things that I’m working towards as well, and the yard work is just a plus to get this part taken care of. What a great way to get some exercise.

If you’re trying to get healthy too, and you read my blog, then thank you for taking your time to read about my experience. Please reach out, a supportive community helps keep us motivated to get things done. I know one of my motivators is numbers. I’m obsessed: the time of the day, how much more time before I get home, now the number of steps I take within a day. I’m trying to get an average of 5,000-6,000 steps in a day. 10,000 is still a bit much, but I’m gonna do my best to hit that number more often, because last week when I did the number, I had a great fire inside.

This is the director, and that’s a wrap.

10,000…What?!

So, to start out, this was my last day of work this week, and I made it! With my uniform swimming on me. I’m in the need of a new belt to hold up those Genie pants. My lunch has changed so much since I first started working.  Work Lunch

This is what I take with me for a ten hour day to eat anymore. Sometimes it’s more than enough. I think that it’s crazy where I’m at, compared to as where I had been.

As my wife hasn’t been feeling the best today, we decided to go out to a local restaurant called Pita Fresh. I’m a huge fan of Shawarma, so my meal was Chicken Shawarma, with Couscous, olives, and Tahini sauce.Dinner before I ate

This is a picture of my bowel, it’s kind of big, and full of delicious food. I used to be able to destroy a meal like this and not think anything of it. That’s actually how I was several months ago, but this is what my meal looked like after I was done:after I ate

It’s funny that I barely made a dent. At least this can keep me going for a few days. The struggles of a fat person.  I’m satisfied with that, and today was an inspired day. Better food, better movement, and better activity.

So today I did over 10,000 steps, that’s over 4 miles. Here’s the proof:Steps for the day

Since I had started this journey this time, and the surgery, I’ve never made it quite this high. Last highest was like 9,141 steps. Crazy how I walked almost five fucking miles. I was motivated like crazy, I wanted to get to the 10,000 mark, and I was walking with a fiery purpose.

One of the best feelings is knowing that I can and want to move faster. I even jogs for a few steps, but I’m not ready for that quite yet. This week was the first week back at work, and I decided that I wanted to know how I was going to feel after work this week, but I do plan on getting back to the gym after work, a few days a week. I think I’m ready to take this to the next step.

I’ve had two other people express the interest of my progress and asked about the surgery, I’m glad that people want to get their body’s healthy, and I gave the number to West Medical to a co-worker yesterday. I hope that this helps my co-worker out in the most positive of ways. I’m the first to say that this hasn’t been an easy journey, but I’ve met some wonderful people because of this, and I think the rocky waves are over for the majority of my progress. All I have to do is keep my mind focused on the mission and go towards the goals.

I’m also happy that this little blog has gotten some attention, and I’m glad to get new followers. It’s my way of giving my voice to the same situations that people may be afraid or embarrassed to discuss. You can see more of the visuals on my Instagram page : https://www.instagram.com/ckproject97/. This shows my weight loss journey, as well as my adventures with my family, and friends. They mean so much to me, and this is part of the reason why I’m taking the path that I’m doing now. Please feel free to ask questions, or just say something to be apart of the discussion.

The CK Project is a platform to help me be better at life and health, and I hope that it motivates others to do the same. I’ve had several people tell me that, and it brings such joy to have been able to help. I’m all about the positivity now, even though I have moments where it doesn’t seem enough to stay that way(after all, we all have bad days).

I’ve been on the negative side of life, and it sucks, but by doing this, I think that it’s starting to define the person I am, because the bad things help create character, and it’s like I didn’t really start finding out who I was until I hit the later part of my thirties. This is the person I want to be, and I’m not letting the hate and negativity define who I am.

This is the director, and that’s a wrap.