Outside’s Gonna Melt Your Face, But I’m Feeling Fine.

The summer heat is cooking, and with this weather last year everyday felt like the scene from Raiders of the Lost Art,  in where the Nazi’s open the Ark of the Covenant, and their faces melt off. However, I’ve come prepared more for the heat this year then I have been in the past several years. Where being on the job in years past, my back would be a sweaty water fall, it’s now just a trickle. I do still think that the heat sucks, but at least I don’t feel like I’m about to die everyday.

I did my two week weigh–in on Friday, and discovered myself down another three-point-one pounds. I’ve discovered that that’s about what I’ve been averaging for the last few months, is about three to four pounds every two weeks. That’s not bad considering that one to two pounds a week is what would be classified normal. Looking at pants sizes of the biggest at fifty-four, and looking at the waist of a forty-two, is a big difference.

That brings my total down one hundred-twenty-one-point-two pounds. I joke and say that I’ve lost my wife in weight. It’s about true, and I’m good with that. I still get those moments of being nervous of being caught in a stall. Especially since the hundred-plus weather isn’t helping my motivation at all. I also went for a walk on Thursday after work, and discovered that I had burnt the top of my head on the walk.36329976_2091643187757945_3984035268909858816_o

I took the above picture on my phone on that Thursday around six-thirty in the evening. I like how the shadows give a bit of a serious look. As I walk, I think about anything and everything. I realized that this is my meditation, as I’m always in my head when I walk. I guess you could say that this is my time at “church”. A time where I have conversations with God. I know that it gives me the chance to just walk, and not think about the physical activity that I’m doing.

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This is the best I’ve felt in a long time. I took this for my weigh-in update photo for the social media. When I saw the scale read three-hundred-eight-point-seven pounds, it’s truly a great feeling. I haven’t been this light, since my oldest child was born, and that was seventeen years ago. The changes, both physically and mentally are incredible. My body is getting closer to my self-image.

It’s incredible to think that as I get ever closer to my fortieth year in life, that I have finally taken control back of who I am. It feels that I let most of my twenties and thirties kind of keep me down, and dictate my uncontrollable self. A feeling of helplessness and hatred for the decisions that I was making. I was lashing out at myself because I let myself get a certain way. I have that control now. I’m not letting life pass me by. I’m finding that strength and happiness that I deserve as a person.

Speaking of goals, I have a few updates about the other parts of my life. One, we are almost ready to go full ahead and film our short The Reunion, that’s the official title of what was previously known as The Dialogue. I’m excited to be working with the casted individuals, as one of them has worked with me, and for me in other projects before. Plus the new blood joining us really seems to be like a good guy as well. I can’t wait to get started so that we can get this one in the “can” and continue on with the other things we’re planing on doing.

The other news, is related to the Geekultural Experience. I’ve been talking to a writer on Tumblr about checking out his Manga and this will be one of those I’ll do a review on for my geek media. I think this is the start of something that could help boost his, and our brands together and I look forward to seeing what other connections that I’ll be doing through the various platforms of social media.

As a reflection of the what’s going on in my personal life: My oldest child will be seventeen years old this Wednesday, and I’m both proud, and surprised by this fact. She’s grown into a beautiful person, and she’s made me very proud of the accomplishments that she’s set for herself. She also makes me feel incredibly old because she is turning seventeen, but I look forward to spending the day with her and watching the fireworks, because she shares the day with the birth of our country’s independence.

Well, this is the Director with another blog, and that’s a wrap.

Phase 2: What’s Next?

As I seem to finally be getting all my “ducks in a row”, I can’t help but think of the growth that this month has brought me. First, I’ve really started getting into the free lance thing, and I’m currently building my connections to work with other people in the future. I should be doing more videos soon, and not just for the film side of things, but I also think that it’s about time for the CK Project to start coming out with somethings too.

Which leads me to the second “duck”. I’ve been really pushing the weight loss part of the project since before my surgery, and I stand firm on how I’m moving forward. The walking will continue, even if I’ve slacked for a couple of days. After all I did walk over thirty-one miles over the convention weekend. I’m so close to the one hundred pound mark that I’ll be excited if that’s where I’ll be weighing in at my four month check up.

I have to keep mindful of slacking off, because getting back into old habits isn’t hard to do. Even my studying has tapered off. In my defense, this has been a crazy month, and I’m getting back on track for things(notice the blog coming out today). I have to keep going, because there are other’s looking up to me as a role model. It’s crazy to think that I would be where I am right now in my life. Good thing that I’m doing my best to be a positive beacon.

I was having a conversation with a friend today, and she told me that my motivation and positive energy has affected her, and that she’s been trying to do more for her family. I’m glad that I could help. That’s the turning point for me, when I decided that I wanted to help others and not just myself. That’s just part of the mental change for me.

Speaking of the mental change, I’m having more problems focusing at my current job, because there’s more passion in the other side in my life. I can’t wait to be dealing with that side full-time, and be able to get paid for it. I’m not trying to get rich by any means, but I know that I can do better than I have now, and I can support my family better. At this, I have moments that I feel my patience is wavering. Which another friend says that it seems like it would be common for my situation.

I think that losing the weight has also helped me mentally. Now I’m not so down on myself because I’m feeling trapped in my body. I’m actually feeling different, with the way I stand, my confidence(which on a side note, hasn’t really ever been a problem), and overall, I’m feeling better in health than I have in the last fifteen years.

I love how people are encouraging me, and telling me to keep it up. I kind of think that it’s funny that people would say that too me. This has been a lot of work, even with the surgery, don’t you think that I would want to keep it off. I’ve been fat most of my life, I’m ready for the time I’m not shaped like the Kool-aid man. Believe me, I’ve seen some people kind of stop doing what it takes to keep off the weight, and it isn’t worth it to me, in my book.

Finally, I’m getting my geek media started. The Geekultural Expereince. This was something that I’ve wanted to do for a long time, but I never really had a name for it. The last name we had was Geek on Geek, but I realized that’s kind of over done, and I wanted something more unique, and why not. Geek, Culture, Experience; it just made sense to me. Look for the first pod cast this weekend, and we’ll be dropping it on Saturday, March thirty-first.

This was just a small update, and as always, this is the director and that’s a wrap.

Convention Aftermath

So, we went down to Anaheim Thursday after I got off of work. Doing Disneyland, and then three days at Wonder Con, I did a total of 70,641 steps. That’s a total of 31.19 miles. I don’t think that I’ve ever walked so much in my life. Plus I couldn’t eat all the food that I got, but the food trucks were great. Lots of Greek and Middle Eastern food. Yum!

We met Nichelle Nichols, who played Uhura in the original Star Trek series. First off, for a woman who’s 86, she looks amazing. I actually told her that she’s a treasure, and yes, I might of had a thing for her at one time. We even got her autograph for my dad’s birthday.

So, the event was exciting and we meet lots of cosplayers, and famous people, but it was also nice to have my buddy Ed with us(I love taking new people to these things). The biggest part was that plans are still getting put in place for my newest project. The Geekultural Experience, https://www.facebook.com/Geekuturalxp/, Twitter @geekulturalxp, Instagram @ geekultural. This part of my life was finally able to take off a bit more, plus we’ll be starting a podcast this weekend.

We’ll be planning on a better presentation for next year, and it will be awesome for when things can really be presented as the media company that I’m going for. We’ll start the business cards and t-shirts as well.

I was glad to come back home last night. I think that I’m glad to stay home for awhile. The last three weekends have been stays at hotels, and I’m just glad to be able to have my bed for the upcoming weekends. Life has been crazy, but at least I’ve been able to keep up with my weight loss. We had a scale in the hotel room this weekend, and I was down another pound and a half. I beat the first programmed goal, and am at 338.4. Four more pounds and I’ll be at my lowest since I was on Weight Watchers in 2013. There is no stopping me, and ninety-one and a half pounds, is almost the half way point to my ultimate goal weight.

I’m happy to report that some more of my friends have gotten behind the CK Project  movement and have been losing weight. It feels great to be able to help be a tool for motivation, and it’s one of the reasons that I’ve started it. It’s even better to see that they are taking the steps to better care for themselves. I really want to see this movement take over and get more people invested in their own well being.

I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t being self gratified by all these various things that I’m doing. I mean, I’m a filmmaker, and Luckey Bom Films is were I want my professional life to go. Being a storyteller is one of the most amazing things that I’ve ever put my energy into. From the writing, to the directing, all the way to editing the movie, has been so much fun, and I will continue to do this for as long as I can.

The CK Project, has been my longest going project to date. I’ve had it going for seven years, on and off, but it’s really taken off in the last year, in a direction that I didn’t expect. The main focus started out as me using this as a way to hold myself accountable to the weight loss, and then it evolved into dealing with my personal struggles with depression, just to come full circle back to weight loss. It all remains apart of what the project is all about. A way for me to help other’s who struggle, or don’t see a way for them to get the help.

Being a geek is something I’ve embraced, more so over the last ten years than any other time. I was able to help start a local group called the Geeks of the IWV. It came about in a time where my friend’s lost their oldest son in a tragic accident, and this group was created to help pay tribute to his passions. I always wanted something more, a media group for myself, to share the passion of my geekiness, and that’s when this year we finally came up with The Geekultural Experience. This was the one thing that seemed to take the most time to actually develop because I want to do this right. Pod casting was just one of those things that interested me, and now I’m going to have the opportunity to have a forum to share this passion with others in a round table discussion.

Life has taken off, and I can’t wait to see where this journey is going. I’m currently recruiting new clients, and building my teams. Things are beautiful. This is the director and that’s a wrap.

Pre 30k Weekend

Well, so far this week has been shit for steps, I think I broke 8k at one point earlier in the week, but outside of the Vegas trip, I haven’t really done much else. Though this is one of those weekend’s where all the aspects of my life are going to collide together. This will be good for all those aspects too.

We are in Anaheim tonight, getting ready for a weekend at the comic book convention Wonder Con. As a pre-game warm up, we decided to go to Disneyland for a couple of hours, and I got 14,956 steps for the night. Disney is one of those places that the steps take off(remember I did the 22k last time). So, now that I’ve done almost 15k, I think I will hit up the same amount, if not more tomorrow, and Saturday. Sunday should be the at least 10k.

I will be keeping people updated on my tasks for the CK Project,  but this weekend is more about my Geekultural Experience. Twitter @geekulturalxp is part of my multi-faceted brand that is going to shine this weekend. Plus there will be people that I can network with for my filmmaking stuff as well(see the three sides are colliding this weekend).

So, Instagram and Twitter are going to blow up this weekend, which will help launch the Geekultural Experience podcast next weekend. I can’t wait to start that part of the journey, as it fills out my skill list for things that I offer. This weekend, I’ll have my partner Ed Smith with us, and I can’t wait to share this side of the geekiness with him.

The bright side is that I’m not going to be eating much as my gastric sleeve won’t tolerate the foods that will be provided at the convention. With all the walking, things will be interesting for sure. At least being almost one hundred pounds lighter will keep my stamina up.

On the other side of things, this should be the last weekend that I’ll be out of town busy… I miss the weekends at home, I haven’t been creative like I would like to be, but the filmmaking job helps keep me busy, even if it doesn’t pay much of the bills yet.

So, much is going on right now, and since the start of my phase two: evolution, I’m looking forward to seeing where this is going to take me. The next thing that I’m going to worry about is the stress test which I take on Monday for work. I think that I’ll have a better time passing it this time, in compared to the last time I went through all of this. I don’t think that I’ll pass the physical agility test, but I will give it my best. Plus, I should start my personal training next week as well.

I will also be learning skills from my partner and friend Ed. This will help with another project that we’ll be doing, and there will be more details on that a bit later. I find learning is the best thing for me as I continue to grow as a person, both professionally and personally.

Going back to my weight loss journey, I’ve been reaching out to new people that are going through, or want to go through the process of weight loss surgery. I want to help give direction to those who might not know what to expect, or not sure how to handle the feelings that come with this process. I’m glad that I have some insight into what goes on internally.

I’ve been up entirely too long tonight, and we have a big day tomorrow. Lots of booths and panels that we want to check out. Stay tuned to the Geekultural Experience Twitter and Instagram pages as I’m going to be utilizing those as much as possible this weekend. I love sharing the geeky side of my passion with people, and hope that it becomes something people will want to continue to follow.

This is the director and that’s a wrap.

Pump Up The Jam on My Toast!

God, that work flow is going so smoothly today. So, while I was working on homework, I was thinking about working with one of my actors yesterday. So he could start to get a feel for the character that he will be playing, and the kind of motivation that I’m looking for in his performance. I even got Ed to come in a read his part of Nash to see how they sounded together. Sarah was there to read the other parts so I could get the feel of the read. I’m so glad to have a great team to help out for sure.

As my actor Curtis was hanging out for several hours with me, I decided to show him some of my older work…. boy have I come a long way from the beginning. I’m really getting better at being a visual storyteller for sure.

I get to doing my homework and I started thinking about the Appreciate What You’ve Got reshoots, and I decided that I’m going to just reshoot the whole thing and this time get the original vision that I had intended(as I write this, I’m shaking, not sure of excitement, or the fact that I haven’t eaten in several hours). I also know that because of the experience of location scouting this week, I’m going to have to make some revisions for Nash Gray, but I think the story will be better for it as those alterations will be put in. Hell, I’m excited as well as hungry, so I’m going with it.

I’m pumped and my fingers are going constantly without really stopping. I started an account with Indiegogo so that we can start crowdfunding our projects, which in turn help make them better. I’ve reshaped the first script and sent it off, and I’m waiting on my food. My weekend disappeared. We had a yard sale for Relay for Life for our Geeks United Against Cancer, so Friday and Saturday hours were from  6am -11pm both days and I have no regrets, but I wish I had that time to breathe, because Monday is coming up on us way too soon.

Did I tell you that I’m loving what I’m doing? I’m pretty sure I’ve said it at least once or twice somewhere. Anyway, that’s a quick thought on how this weekend’s going as I’m trying to work on more location scouting this week, and we have a casting call coming up next weekend. Hit me up on one of my various pages and ask me where to go, so that I can point you in the right direction.  This is the Director and that’s a wrap!

Superhero Shirt Day: The Birth of Something Bigger

Oh boy, where to even begin? Damn, I can’t believe that it’s been over a year since the world lost a big geek. James, I see or talk to your parents almost daily, and I know that they miss you more than ever. You left a huge hole in the lives that you impacted, and things wouldn’t be the same. It was good to know you kid.

Tomorrow is your birthday, you would have been twenty years old. I think you would be proud of the things that are being done in your name. There’s so much that I personally wish I could have shared with you, and I think the things that Sarah and I have done with your parents, would have gotten you excited to join in with as well.

Your birthday day has become a day to remember the parents who have lost a child, and I’ve had the unfortunate experience to see it happen to a few people I know, but their children are honored with you. Thank you for being a bigger light then anyone could have ever thought you would be.

Superhero Shirt Day brought along the birth of the Geeks of The IWV, and it has really brought people together. I never expected this to become such a big part of my life, hell, I’m producing content with its own channel because of the Geeks. It really fills that passionate side of me. Thank you Kim for letting me run with the Geeks on Geek concept, it’s something that I’ve been wanting to do for a long time, and I think James would have loved this concept too.

The Geeks of The IWV was something I agreed to start because I thought it would help my co-creator coupe, and it’s seemed to have given her that, and given her more. It’s even given me more than I thought I would have dreamed of. I knew that I was heading towards this anyway as an avenue that I wanted to pursue, but its also given me inspiration to create content with the other geeks that I know, and I can’t wait to start producing more content in the name of the Geeks.

So, to my followers on WordPress, Facebook, and Twitter, I ask that you wear something with a superhero as a shirt, or even something geeky, to help support this day. Help honor the parents of the lost children, and fly the geek flags high in the air. Happy twentieth James, we love you, and hope you’re smiling down upon those who honor your memory. This is the director, and with geeky pride, I’m calling this a wrap.